Tuesday, September 22, 2009

I've decided not to try....



I love it when I unexpectedly connect so closely with someone or something, that it makes me feel that I am not on my own in this world. That there is someone else feeling just like me. That I am not the only person out there who has put undies on when they've already got a pair on (hey Teresa!) - you know, that sort of thing. When you read something that somebody else has written and it's almost flabbergasting how much it sounds like something that you might have written yourself. The kind of connection that surprises you....
My friend Kim handed me an article today from the Brisbane paper, written by a Mum with two children. The things she has written, makes me laugh because I can almost see myself thinking, and doing the exact same things. This is a shortened version of her article.......
"I'm tired. And I think I know why. I've become a try-hard in my own life.
I'm trying to recycle, re-use, but also de-clutter. I'm trying to not watch so much TV. Or spend so much time gazing at my laptop. When I'm at my laptop, I'm trying to sit up straighter. I'm trying to do more cooking and less assembling. I'm trying to eat healthy, but cook quickly. I'm trying to save money, and shop local, and not feel guilty when the local greengrocer shuts down.
I'm trying to do more exercise, and weights so I don't get Osteoperosis. I'm trying to walk the dog more. I'm trying to read more great books and read more to the children. I'm trying to meditate and read poetry. I'm trying to keep up with nieces and nephews. I'm trying to live in the moment, and plan for the future. I'm trying to remember 3 billion passwords and code words and PINs. And I'm trying to get more than 5 hours sleep per night. I'm trying. And I'm tired.
And then I realise that if you, your children and your loved ones are healthy - you have everything. The other stuff doesn't matter. Life is good."
So I'm trying to do a lot of this stuff too. And trying not to do a whole lot of other stuff as well. And I'm tired - so look where all this trying has got me. I think I will try to not try. And if that doesn't work, I think I will try..........something else entirely different.

2 comments:

Saminda said...

Oh my dear friend, how I love you! :) I just want to hug all that trying right out of you and put a whole lot of love right in. ;) *virtual hugs*.

Esther said...

Hi helen,

I just read your comment on my blog and your own cool blog.

I am so annoyed that your lovely message and story has been waiting for me to read for so long. One of my friends just now discovered my blog and left a comment so I checked it and then read your amazing message!

It's a funny thing to look back on experiences and wonder about the significance. All I know is that with God nothing is wasted. Our lives are so precious to him.

I would love to follow your blog if that is ok. Oh and I am going back to Uganda next year...maybe you could come to or send some stuff over??? Just putting it out there ;)

Blessings, esther